wow, do my journals sound ever so emo. Well, this one is no different...
So let us salute to the death of my mother's computer, and what will be leaving:
A gajillion pictures found online that will be difficult to recover
both pictures by me and maddy, that have no duplicate, and will never see the light of day again
all my awesome music. That i have to rebuy on I-tunes, download, and etc.
pictures I was working
over 2000 pieces of sims custom content
custom photoshop brushes. AND photoshop. yup. thats gone.
five versions of the sims, renpy program to make the graphic novels when I improve my art, various backgrounds to use in the game.
ALL my saved favorite stories, websites, refrences, etc.

but worst of all?
My privelage to use the computer when mom's not home.

cheers.

Well, case anyone who was wondering where I went (Which noone really gives two hoots...) I had term papers, and lots of busy stuffs. It was very hectic. Of course, I chose to do it all at the last minute, but hey...

I have to go to totalcon this weekend (haha! I flee again!) but I promise that I'll get some pictures up and running soon.

BTW, Tablet > trying to clean up picture...
mais, Tablet< in simpilness...

Ok, lets start off with the fact that I REALLY need to add a new picture or something. Seriously. There's nothing here. Nothing new, at least. But I have a suprise for us all when I get off my butt and work on it! ^w^

But anywhoo.

I have determined what I need to do on deviantart before I die.

I need to get more fans than Devdasi
Seriously
For real.

More fans, in a sense of bitter revenge. Because once, I sent her fanart I worked uber hard on, put my heart and soul into, and she said thank you. Nothing else. Never got posted on her comic like all the OTHER, NICE fanarts! *can you say: Childhood trauma? xDD*

And the worst part? She exemplifies everything I stand against artwise.

So here's the dealio.
I looked at her comic account whose name escapes me, and I have determined that I will need 700 fans. at least. Now I mean real fans. Not people who fav me just because I faved them. I would much like to earn their respect and love! *determined glow in eyes* And here's what I'm NOT willing to do to get these fans:

-Cheapass yaoi comic on Smackjeeves.com.
-Whore myself out on other sites, going "L00ks at m3h gallerie or SUFFA!". If there's a post, however, asking if anyone else goes on deviantart or something like that, I will kindly go "yes. My account is here. Come talk any time you like! "
-Gratuitous amounts of Fanart. My OCs will earn the loves of people, not something that my love and care did not create!

... so... any ideas guys? You know, methods of gaining fame other than the above messages? Because I'm SURE there's other people on sites that hates what she stands for.
She even has her own little ditty in the Smackjeeves article on Encyclopedia Dramatica, if you care for that stuff.

On a secondary note, now feeling bad that I even let out such a huge amount of wrath here, because you know, or at least maddy does, that I dont like insulting people, Devdasi and the others on smackjeeves are probably nice... or at least, the others on smackjeeves... I just never really talked to them... but 700 fans is still a rather nice goal to reach...

Ok, So I desided to try and voice act for this KHII Game someone's making, and I go: "Hey! Lets try and do this!" So I record my voice, and I am quite aware that in reality I dont sound like I think I do (I really sound like, a German Woman on Steroids or something...), but I didnt think it would effect my voice acting skills.

Turns out I suck at making voices, and Maddy has never told me. I mean, She's good at it. I suck. Really badly. My characters dont even sound like what I hear in my head. It's sad. Maybe I need more training? Or maybe I'm not doing it right, because my sister's in teh other room and I'm afraid she'll come over here and kick my bum for sounding like an idiot. I mean, I dont know, I havent really started talking different voices till about last year (at least, in front of people other than maddy), and THEY say they can hear a huge difference. But I dont hear it. At all.

I apologize to maddy for ever burning her ears with my voice.
Seriously.

Or maybe I just dont feel up to proper voicing. I dont know.
But Aiden doesnt sound like Aiden to me.
Poor little girl...

And Maki doesnt sound like maki. And Yuffie from KHII and Aerith doesnt sound like themselves...

*sob*

Well, new year, and a whole new list for the year... And this time, It's songs on GHIII That I curse for ever being there, for now I must download and get onto my I-pod, in fear of it getting stuck in my head...

Barracuda: Heart
Through the Fire and the Flames: Dragonforce
Bulls on Parade: Rage Against the Machine
Reptilia: The Strokes
Paint it Black: The Rolling Stones
Holiday in Cambodia:
The Metal: Tencacious D
3's and 7's: Queens of the Stone Age
Stricken: Disturbed
Knights of Cydonia: Muse

I'm starting to think that Muse might just be a good group for me. I already have and love Map of the Problematique, and Knights of Cydonia, so there's a good chance their other songs are good...

Happy new year peeps...